..:. Cracking My Vainpot .:..

It's been so long... I will soon forget what it's like to be loved.

Autumn Leaves

Both Sides Now

Feels strange when my generation of popstars starts dying off.

Boyzone used to be one of my "guilty pleasure/cheesy" listening. Their song "No Matter What" has helped me getting through many tight spots in life.

It was a BIG deal when Stephen Gately came out on a newspaper 10 years ago, cos I was coming out too. We're same age as well!

He put out a god awful solo album after that. "New Beginning" or something. Not a fan, but I still bought it for ? solidarity.

RIP Stephen.

Sour's 'Hibi no Neiro' (Tone of everyday)

My honeymoon period in Kansas City is officially over.

Actually, I want to divorce from it!

I'm stuck.

Stuck in a very hostile workplace.

Do i feel that my personal safety is at risk?

No, not yet.

But then again, neither did that yale student before she got murdered and then stufffed in her own lab.

I'm not scared.

I'm just upset.

Upset about colleagues who I've mistaken as friends.

I wonder if he slept well on that bed I drove 60 miles in the snow for him to buy.

I bet they're still drinking the same tea that they once served me like a special guest.

I'm upset that from now on, I will never make another real friend at work.

No wonder I can't stop looking at pictures of puppies.

Ah. Good old Folsom Street Festival

How long does it take to lose your innocence in San Francisco?

Less than 24 hours.

Castro, Saturday night, bit drunk. Picked up this 23yo muscle boy on the sidewalk (don't ask).

New to the city, he didn't really know anyone. All shy in the beginning, he often stared at his feet. But give him a bit of encouragement, all hell went loose. Soon enough his top came off and he was pole dancing.

The next day, we went to his 1st Folsom Street Festival together and he really came out of his shell. Before we knew it, he stripped to his underwear, signed himself into a fund-raising wrestling match and won 3:0. Whew. As if that's not enough, this Stanford student took it to the stage and did a hot-n-sweaty naked twister with a bunch of SM porn stars.

Why am I surprised?

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